Subconscious lies

Extraordinary feelings build from deep within the stomach.

They plant inside your heart and mind.

They never leave.

Extraordinary feelings alter your view on life.

They change you for the better.

They never leave.

Extraordinary feelings create a new optimistic world.

They are wondrous and satisfying.

They never leave.

But truth be told, some day they do leave.

And they leave you wondering;

I thought they were never gonna leave.

Well,

You're just really good at lying to yourself.

Empty with no reason

Most times I think I have problem that doesn't really exist, but I know it's there... Lurking through every painful thought and memory that my brain contains. Most times I do all that I can to make myself better, but I never see a change, just full effort and zero resolution. Most times I cry even when I have no true reason to cry because it looks a lot easier than laughing. Most times I look at myself in the mirror and wonder who I've become and shamefully look away with disappointment in myself. Most times I just lay in bed and constantly think because I hate people and I'd rather keep away alone. Most times I wish I wasn't alone but everyone and everything makes no difference in my mood. Most times I wonder why I have to be this way, but then again, my past has fucked me sideways.

Some can call me crazy. But I prefer intuitive.

I only know what I feel, and what I feel is something that others may frown upon, but there's not much I can really do..

I'm just a sad person.



A really sad person.

Found in the unwanted

Sometimes we forget why we wanted what we got, and then we realize we don't want it anymore.

Oh how strong I feel

And I'm going to call this my rite of passage. You're absence is the start of a new and beautiful life. So thank you. I appreciate your absence. It helped me to learn that my life was not meant to wait on you.

I don't need you.